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HOW to DEAL WITH MY ANGER?
I would feel very angry simply because I didn't/forgot get my revenge back. But the fact is, I don't want a revenge, never want one.
So the reason why I'm still angry is very intriguing.
To think back some good cases of the past, I no longer angry because those exploitations are usually simple to discern, and I did make progress to state my boundaries and gave them the "punishments" (well, sort of) they deserve when they crossed the line again.
This case is more complicated. The exploitation process is more complicated, and I left many things unsaid. Should I said these things to them again? Not necessary indeed, cause I've decided to delete them from my life already. Besides, why let them know I still care? (maybe this is the thought that really hurts me? I shouldn't care how other people would think how I feel, but simply to deal with my feelings?)
So why I feel quite a relief when deleting some people but still feel quite angry after deleting them for quite a while?
Maybe dad is right. It's really not my fault that people want to be exploitative, manipulative, selfish, distasteful, etc. But it will be my fault if I compromise to these behaviors the next time I encounter them, or to be bothered for so long by other people's faults.
Only if there's a next time (it'd better be not!), I'll definitely tell them bits by bits the sickness of their soul and the boundaries they have no abilities to hold.
Fringe is over
Yes, am on my way home…four weeks of being tired, excited, scared and happy all in one month. Who knew that could happen? Late night drinks up the Loft Bar on the last Sunday was awesome, Phil Jupitus was the DJ and free champagne and canapés on the menu, but diet coke was a chargeable offense, its either free wine, beer or champers or pay for a soft drink!
I watched a very drunk comic try to relay a story into a famous comics face, it was a bitch about me, I stood there until it was done, drunken comic stared at me, stunned I had heard it all then reached over and hugged me, telling me I am just wonderful! That’s Edinburgh and that’s why I pay for diet coke, one day I will be that drunken person screaming a whisper about other people in front of them into a very annoyed famous mans ear.
Then watched a skinny underdressed bleached blonde with a slash of bright red lipstick, sashay about in a tight mini dress looking for famous male comics to ‘befriend’ I asked her if she was in a show and she blurted out ‘Antigone’ I wont laugh at how she pronounced it…anyway she sidled up to Stephen K Amos and batted her big long lashes and giggled, he stared at her and checked out my flyering boy’s tight jeans round his ass. That’s Edinburgh.
I have had a good Edinburgh this year, though it has been blighted with a feeling that people don’t want to see comedy unless they have seen the person on the telly. Even if the didn’t like them on the telly, just to see them in the flesh and pay the price was worth it. Everyone had an opinion on the McEwan Hall which seats over a thousand people, I too had a gripe about that but ultimately it’s down to the paying public, if they just want to see big shows from the telly then you have to accept their choice.
I watched some friends play to very small houses and as the fringe grows beyond the fringe I fear small interesting shows will just end up not coming back, which will take the very soul out of the fringe. It soon will be just big names in big venues and you know what? That’s what the public in general want, so therefore the venues must supply the demand.
I went to see Tara Flynn’s show which was awesome and funny as hell. I never got to see Joe Powers the man who talks to dead people, coz I couldn’t get my hands on a gun during Edinburgh, I wanted to shoot the fake fuck and see if he could annoy us from beyond the grave. The fake psychic got some damning reviews and some awful comments from fellow comics who can smell a shitty stick from 50 years away.
That said it was a good old time but to be honest am glad to be going home.
Part Two- Am home…
Went to the Pleasance chatted with Anthony who owns the venue, he is a lovely man and we had a good catch up. Doing my last show is always emotional, you get exhausted by the past month, all the worrying, the stresses, the many late night gigs, the ticket checking, the flyering issues, making sure the posters are up, making sure my stars are all over them, then you do that last show and you feel….elated and happy its done.
I put down the microphone, thanked the audience, hugged the techy staff, kissed the security man, patted the dog that sits outside and ran to my car.
Husband was outside the gig with Ashley in the loaded up car, it was crammed with all out stuff; husband moaned “why do you both need all this shit?”
“Shut up, you got me put in jail for one night, I don’t forget what you put me through with your gun totting family” I snapped.
“Are you ever going to let that go, it was 15 years ago moany face” He laughed.
“Mum, Dad shut up, and mum you cant counter every argument with dad with the fact they found guns in his dads house years ago, both of you deal with the argument today, the issue now, not something from decades ago, now, lets all cheer we are leaving Edinburgh, coz I have been coming here since I was eight years old and you BOTH made me do that for years, so now I am harking back to the past coz you are both irritating me, can we leave this fucking city and get me home please” Ashley snapped.
We all laughed, one crazy dysfunctional family in car packed with a guitar (Ashley plays it), clothes, unused giant posters of my face and a case full of dirty underwear heading for the M8 and home to Glasgow.
I adore that my husband who doesn’t particularly enjoy being around comedians or comedy for that matter- truly supports me totally. He has never once said “this isn’t a career choice, you could make more money elsewhere” he has always supported me fully. He never came to Edinburgh as he dislikes new places, he has Aspergers syndrome and new houses make him unsettled, he finds it difficult to deal with incompetent people who cant print a ticket or work a sound system, he cannot stand the sycophantic nature of comedy and because of his syndrome if a comedian asks his opinion he usually says “you weren’t funny, but I like your new jacket” Aspergers people don’t grasp tact very well. But if they say they like you then they really do, that’s what I like about him!
So my first day home was awesome, I slept for hours like a freed hostage victim, I showered like I had been assaulted in an alley and ate like a Alsatian dog that had been locked in a garage for two weeks.
That was the Edinburgh Fringe 2010.
Qua Variant, Foundation Of Intelligent Design
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Qua Variant (QV), being a property of the defined states (A,B) and their interaction which are immutable and invariant which result in a predetermined state (C) resulting from the interaction. If this interaction is repeated, than we get the same predetermined state, C. The simple equation, [QV}(A)(x) + [QV](B)(y) = [QV](C)(x,y) is descriptive of the dynamics of creation. QV is the immutable properties that are used in our intellect and allows us to develop parameters for future measurements; the practical purpose of parameters being the comparing of states or the dynamics of a previous observation. Parameters (x,y) are used for the observed measurements. C could be considered a constant of the universe.
From the moment of the big bang, this equation holds true even unto an instant of the present state, C, of the entire universe. The universe is intelligently designed; with all of its countless interactions, not one particle has deviated from it's program, even anti-matter is on cue. The interventions into the universe by man is only part of the Creator's plan. The dynamical equation becomes a metaphysical equation when parameters of human nature (Dimensions) is added. This is the foundational beginning of the intelligent design book in which is going to be taught in public schools as soon as the Lord returns suddenly and does mighty works in a short time. If God did not program immutable laws into his creation everything would be random. There would be no scientific method. We are merely the observers of qua variant events.
Evolving life forms are the results of a master plan predetermined by our Creator, God. This is not random; there is no chaos. When an observer misses the beginning of creation, than he witnesses chaos and randomness until the observer is up to speed.The Greek philosopher, Cicero, stated that order is the sign of intelligence.
Orwellian Problems Shall Arise Rapidly In This New Age
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Big Brother is growing by leaps and bounds with the goal of becoming our parent. A shadow global government is developing at present that is collecting information on private citizens and developing a psychological profile for each person. This psychological profile, dossier, contains as much private and intimate knowledge as they can collect; yes, big brother is moving into our bedrooms.
The first move to sneak in their police state was to begin turning America against God; thereby, undermining our rights being given by God. With this move the machinery can slip into the drivers seats as gods of our government. At the present rate that the government is exercising control over us and limiting our liberties, and moving in on our private lives, privacy is going to be non-existent.
Public scrutiny of any dissenter will intensify rapidly. Twenty years from now, the idea of a thought police shall began to manifest itself. With massive implications in the media coloring personalities persons shall be targeted and subtlety eroded if conformation is not confirmed. The social machinery has been mobilized. If you feel the hair on the back of head stand up when you are confronted with a short period of persons anticipating your very thoughts, and speaking it before you can open your mouth, than you are in the Orwellian Zone.
The Perfect Screw Up
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I have always had the theological view that the world is imperfect, and only God is perfect. The latter I hold to firmly; But, my view about the world has been challenged. I believe that I have experienced a perfect screw up.
My computer and all of it's devices were operating nearly perfect, and I was very happy with the system as a whole; netflix movies from my wireless router to my roku receiver; other computers in my home office networking just fine, couple of printers, one being wireless, and access to the internet from my main computer operating like a fine tuned machine. Out of the clear blue, my internet provider blocked my access to the internet. I trouble-shot my system, and found no solution. I called my internet provider, and was told that I needed only a quick password change. During the process I had to disconnect my router; therefore, lossing my movies. I thought, I can reconfigure my router, no problem. Later, after receiving the new password, I was on the internet again. Very happy! I am still attempting to reconfigure my wireless router after 24 hours.
Low and behold, I awoken this morning on the third day, and discovered that once again I was unable to access the internet. I followed the instructions on my screen in order to enter a new password. No! The provider's instruction pages continued to recycle to the beginning after my filling out the information requested. So, I again called the provider. I spent an hour with the first operator attempting to get me on the internet. By now everything was going backwards, the Technician had me to disconnect all perimeter devices because it might be interfering with the new configuration; my system had deteriorated. I was worst-off than ever. After many attempts by the first operator to get me on line, I was transferred to another higher level of tech help inwhich the higher level tech was authorized to override previous settings on my provider account, and was connected once again to the internet. On the third day, I have yet successfully reconfigured any of my devices and computers. No movies! My entire system is down, but my main computer is connecting to the internet again. No telling when I will successfully return my operating system to full performance, hopefully by Thanksgiving; but, I am working on it! I have been crawling on the floor in order to trace a wire through hundreds of entanglied wires; just the beinning. OOPS! My puppy has sneaked and pooped on part of the wires.
During the past three days in order to keep from becoming totally frustrated, I thought I am witnessing perfection. This is a perfect screw up! This hipped me to the theological question of is death symbolic of the results of imperfection and is PERFECT. Wow! Powdering this question prevents me from exploding from recent episodes.
We Are In The Phase Of Conversation With GOD
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I have noticed that to say I am talking with God about everything seem to be a taboo even among some Christians. I really get that "is he a nut" look when I am asked what I have been doing, and I reply sitting around the house and talking with God. I have heard more than once in the media remarks that a person who talks with God needs professional help. This is a lie started by the devil.
Man began believing in One God centuries ago, and in the 15th century the theologian, Martin Luther, brought talking with God to each individual without a need for a clergyman to mediate for the individual. This was the beginning of a personal relationship with God.
Personal prayer to God at anytime or place became available in our Christian beliefs. Jesus, after His resurrection, sent God's Holy Spirit into the world, accessible for all who believe. Now, the time has come that we are to pray to God without ceasing since our Heavenly Father is in the house with us. This is conversation with God since God is constantly with you. Jesus, God in the flesh, insures us that God hears each word from each individual, and you shall hear an answer from God, and you shall know His voice.
Knowing God's voice is very important now due to the solidly entranced big brother who is working constantly to become our parents; our god. Big brother has a voice now established by his large collection of personal data on each citizen in the private sector and distributed by the mass media; millions of tibits of information which targets individuals in the private sector; influencing the attitudes of people toward an individual. This orchestration of info aimed at the inner mind of an individual is more in the interest of state and special interests rather than the individual (A commercialized life if you may) . "...put your pearls (valuables) in heaven so that the cancer worm can't reach and rust can not touch...". We are in the new ages of an infantile, shadowry one world government coming out of the shadows, and for us to preserve a high quality democracy, each individual talking with God and being unified in faith is going to become a necessity. JESUS is that Savior.
The answer to life is "listening to every word that proceeds from the mouth of God and obey"; such is a meaningful and joyful life. "...be still and know that I am God..." God is a purpose unto Himself.
God Has No Limits
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I have noticed while reading many comments about beliefs in God that many have placed a limit on God; thereby, limiting God's power to conform to their concepts and limits such as believing that God has to observe us to see what we are going to do next, and reacting to it.
So, lets start with the correct belief. God is omnipotent which means that he has infinite power; God thinks and it happens without feeling any resistance at all to His Will. God is omniscience which means that God knows everything at once from beginning to infinity. God is omnipresent which means that God doesn't need to travel anywhere in infinity, and certainly not in this universe. Place a limit on God, and satan will defeat you and rob you of your joy and faith.
It is stated in the bible that God can not lie; but, if someone challenges you and you are stumped, just open with "this is for us to hold on to now, but there is a possibility that God will give us a new interpretation", but whatever you do, hold to God as Job did. Make every man a liar and God the truth. God is infinitely beyond our temporary minds. Knowledge of the bible and love for God with much prayer and meditation will always lead you to God's answers and joy.
Toyspace: Knowledge as related to God
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orwell777
, 2010-08-30 16:58:43 in
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In the beginning, God created heaven and earth, and breathed life into man and all other living creatures. Man fell by disobeying God. We are now on a trip in search of what is right and what is wrong; in and out of spaces of thought. Right wins for a season, than wrong over powers right, such as wars with massive killing of people. The trip is coming to an end soon as predicted by many experts mainly due to the nuclear warheads and biological substances that can end all life on earth. Knowledge without God is detrimental.
So, I distinguish knowledge of toyspace as knowledge as seen by Christ Jesus and the Word of God, religious belief. Toyspace has been dated around 60 thousand years ago as its beginning in the mind of ancient man when the first burial appeared. The beginning of burying members of the band is the first sign that man had began thinking of an after life.
Man began its spiritual development by imitating other animals such as birds because the Band worshipped the mobility of the bird for hunting food. Man wanted and needed to move fast into game area and move quickly for the kill. This evolved into other men as being gods not many centuries ago which further evolved into the worship of one God, our Creator of all.
Each book of each religions expresses the identity within our natural world and God's Kingdom of Heaven. Therefore, there are many Toyspaces of thought. We can pray to God for His thoughts on any natural experiences; thereby, receiving a Toyspace inspiration. Each Toyspace has its counter part in the second heaven (Not necessary an identity) where spiritual warfare takes place constantly, and all is alive. "...whatever is bound on Earth is bound in Heaven, and whatever is loosed in Earth is loosed in Heaven..." God has predetermined that all must come to know Him, and possess His Holy Spirit. This is reflected in nature whereas all actions have a predetermined reaction. For all interactions the results are predetermined by God. Man does have free will and grace periods in which God does not immediately punish (God's Permissive Will), but it is always realized in the long run. We experience life for us to know; God already knows everything and all outcomes. If you have a problem with this, than he who hurts anybody is a candidate for the soul that God created and gave free will whose outcome is going to hell.
These predetermined results has led men to an "acceptance state" (recognize) in order to receive God's Spirit from above. We can not contemplate ourselves into the Kingdom of Heaven; but rather we must receive the gift of love from God thru His Son, Jesus. "Listen to every word proceeding from the mouth of God and obey." This complete Spirit has cancelled all incomplete spirits. Toyspace transforms to God's Spirit and that's its end. Jesus, the Son of God, is the Author and Finisher of our faith, and unto God's end. We can now say that Jesus is God in Toyspace. God's Holy Spirit is established in the world now. "I have overcome the world." "Heaven is at hand." Over coming the world for us is to win your spiritual warfare which has been assured by the acceptance of Jesus as Lord of your life.
Everything in nature is coming into being or going out of being. Each that is coming into being is for our material support, and the fruition thereof is a manifestation from God for our spirituality, an addition to Toyspace. "Do everything unto the Lord." The going out of being of the material is the separation of the material from the spirit. "The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life." This is why sacrifice and denial of self is an act pleasing to God. God is a Spirit. Jesus had to sacrifice his body in order to redeem man unto God; unto the Spirit. The flesh caused the original sin by placing value on self rather than placing God, the Spirit, first and above all. This is not symbolic, but truth by intelligent design.
We are all spiritual beings, ever growing as we daily absorb more and more of the knowledge and wisdom shared with us by God and Jesus. We live in human form in order for the lessons taught us by our creator, to have a special meaning for each of us, so that we can apply it to our spiritual individuality. Though each of us is created spiritually in the image of God the creator, we have a uniqueness, that identifies us.
A Simple Metaphysical Equation
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[QV](A)(x) + [QV](B)(y) = [QV](C)(x,y) is a simple metaphysical equation that represents states in the universe and how they interact, and progress thru time. QV is defined as qua variant, which are immutable and unique properties that are predetermined. This is the intelligence for our intellect because it is consistent. A and B are specificly defined states. Parameters, x and y, in which the states are measured such as mass, energy,...love, hate, TIME, desires... ect..., and the values are naturally paired uniquely; meaning that when the interaction is repetitive, we get the same values; therefore, C could be considered a constant with x + y parameters being uniquely paired values that has been predetermined. Meaning that nothing random has happened, but rather that all that counts has counted and resulted in the same state that shall repeat if conditions can be duplicated. If the universe, believing that the big bang theory is correct, than the universe can repeat itself identically. The universe is qua variant, predetermined by a Predetermintor whose omniscience is infinitely perfect. All things is of God, including his Son, Jesus.
The universe has been intelligently designed by a superior mind in which we can not completely imagine; we can not comprehend. Since the founding of the world, every particle of matter including anti-matter is following God's master plan. Man can and has observed the qua variant properties of this creation, and acquired some knowledge which is God's plan for us.
This raises many questions. One being "does God create souls that he know is going to hell without hope or second change?" If we view this through the dimensions of our human thoughts, Yes; but God is not bound to these dimensions which are from our view, appears to be infinite dimensions, but is one thought at one time for God. God knows all at one moment and is never displaced. This is the capability of an omniscience, omnipotent, and omnipresent Being. God is not affected by time; time is displacement and God is timeless. It is impossible to please God without faith because neither can second guess God nor know His Works.
God can create another existence with a different design. A school of thought among some astrophysics is that an infinite number of universes exist, multi-universe theory, in which all possibilities that exist or existed in our universe is going to happen in another universe. I believe that if God so desire to create many other universe; He is the One and only One to create a new design.
Universal simple equation would be [QV](A)(x) + [QV](B)(y) = [QV](U) (We observe and access knowledge), U being the universe at a present instant with states A going to infinity and B states going to infinity; with x,y parameters going to infinity. From the instant of creation with it's intelligent design by God, everything has been determined by God including Jesus. God is awesome beyond our imagination. I had to read it in the bible. Thanks Heavenly Father for Jesus, your Son who raises them that love Him on the wings of an eagle and reveals things.
If there was no qua variance (QV), than we could not access any knowledge...nothing would repeat to be observed again, and found to be a principal that is true always; all would remain random. We would be observers only and not intervening participates. For our metaphysical equation, the important properties are what's immutable and invariant, QV, and the predetermined state, C. for all interactions even in our thought processes. All processes in the universe is state A (beginning) interact with state B (experience) yields the predetermined state C (results) always. All parameters have unique values. We are linear thinkers, one thing at a time. This is the foundation of intelligent design. Greek philosopher, Cicero, stated that order is intelligence.
The discipline of chiropractic philosophy states that there is universal intelligence in matter that causes it to follow its prion; its initial principal, and forms more complex systems [Let me introduce Toyspace as knowledge as it relates to God; God is in the equation, leading to pure religion. spirituality. God is a Spirit. Toyspace treatise to be published in near future.]. In the theory of "Emergence", according to an emergent perspective, intelligence emerges from the connection between subatomic particles, even though the individual particle of which they are made are not. Of course, if one observes one particle, than order can not be defined which is needed for signs of intelligence.
Toyspace: Knowledge as related to God
In the beginning, God created heaven and earth, and breathed life into man and all other living creatures. Man fell by disobeying God. We are now on a trip in search of what is right and what is wrong; in and out of spaces of thought. Right wins for a season, than wrong over powers right, such as wars with massive killing of people. The trip is coming to an end soon as predicted by many experts mainly due to the nuclear warheads and biological substances that can end all life on earth. Knowledge without God is detrimental.
So, I distinguish knowledge of toyspace as knowledge as seen by Christ Jesus and the Word of God, religious belief. Toyspace has been dated around 60 thousand years ago as its beginning in the mind of ancient man when the first burial appeared. The beginning of burying members of the band is the first sign that man had began thinking of an after life.
Man began its spiritual development by imitating other animals such as birds because the Band worshipped the mobility of the bird for hunting food. Man wanted and needed to move fast into game area and move quickly for the kill. This evolved into other men as being gods not many centuries ago which further evolved into the worship of one God, our Creator of all.
Each book of each religions expresses the identity within our natural world and God's Kingdom of Heaven. Therefore, there are many Toyspaces of thought. We can pray to God for His thoughts on any natural experiences; thereby, receiving a Toyspace inspiration. Each Toyspace has its counter part in the second heaven (Not necessary an identity) where spiritual warfare takes place constantly, and all is alive. "...whatever is bound on Earth is bound in Heaven, and whatever is loosed in Earth is loosed in Heaven..." God has predetermined that all must come to know Him, and possess His Holy Spirit. This is reflected in nature whereas all actions have a predetermined reaction. For all interactions the results are predetermined by God. Man does have free will and grace periods in which God does not immediately punish (God's Permissive Will), but it is always realized in the long run. We experience life for us to know; God already knows everything and all outcomes. If you have a problem with this, than he who hurts anybody is a candidate for the soul that God created and gave free will whose outcome is going to hell.
These predetermined results has led men to an "acceptance state" (recognize) in order to receive God's Spirit from above. We can not contemplate ourselves into the Kingdom of Heaven; but rather we must receive the gift of love from God thru His Son, Jesus. "Listen to every word proceeding from the mouth of God and obey." This complete Spirit has cancelled all incomplete spirits. Toyspace transforms to God's Spirit and that's its end. Jesus, the Son of God, is the Author and Finisher of our faith, and unto God's end. We can now say that Jesus is God in Toyspace. God's Holy Spirit is established in the world now. "I have overcome the world." "Heaven is at hand." Over coming the world for us is to win your spiritual warfare which has been assured by the acceptance of Jesus as Lord of your life.
Everything in nature is coming into being or going out of being. Each that is coming into being is for our material support, and the fruition thereof is a manifestation from God for our spirituality, an addition to Toyspace. "Do everything unto the Lord." The going out of being of the material is the separation of the material from the spirit. "The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life." This is why sacrifice and denial of self is an act pleasing to God. God is a Spirit. Jesus had to sacrifice his body in order to redeem man unto God; unto the Spirit. The flesh caused the original sin by placing value on self rather than placing God, the Spirit, first and above all. This is not symbolic, but truth by intelligent design.
We are all spiritual beings, ever growing as we daily absorb more and more of the knowledge and wisdom shared with us by God and Jesus. We live in human form in order for the lessons taught us by our creator, to have a special meaning for each of us, so that we can apply it to our spiritual individuality. Though each of us is created spiritually in the image of God the creator, we have a uniqueness, that identifies us.
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