I died last night
In case you don't believe me, check the obituaries. Last night was quite possibly the most pathetic hour of my existence. I would hate to dwell in it any longer. Such things are best left forgotten. Instead, i'll make a list of pertaining events for future reference. I would love to remember this wretched moment as a life line any time i start to screw up in this relationship. The names are replaced by pseudonyms. That way, it's easier to lie when you say "No, honey, of course i didn't write about you on my very public internet journal"...cause...technically, i wrote about "Pat". Buahahahahahahhahahaha. It feels good.
1. The night before, Pat had agreed to go to the fair with me the next night.
2. Pat misunderstood.
3. I argued with Pat minutes before going to the fair about pat's stupid attitude.
4. Pat was being pissy.
5. Pat went to the fair.
6. We parked separately, so it took me a while to find pat.
7. When found, Pat ignored me and later told me he needed to work at the fair with a group from C.C., distributing tickets.
8. My heart was crushed, as i expected this was a date and dressed for such an event.
9. I cried the 10 minutes back to my car, in front of many unknown and known people.
10. I died.
So there's my story. Possibly, childrens illustrations will be added later. I hate you all.
The worst part of all is that he and i are reconciled again...but my emotions toward him will never be the same, though...
i guess that's the price you pay for being so darned emo, Pat.
The joys of experimentation
Before anyone becomes too excited, I would simply like to clear out that my involvment in this blog is solely to take some time out of the public world to post some secrets and thoughts that i have had in my head for quite a long time. I am not used to doing this, but it seems like everything i do has to be shared with someone else. Im sick of it. Thank God for faceless internet people. You are possibly the luckiest audience in this show i am putting up. You get to see all the juicy crap i could come up with. Anywho, farewell and God bless.