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Why would someone lie?


Why do man have to lie? Is it smth inside that makes u guys like that?

I havnt met even 1 men in my life who wouldnt lie to me. Now im not sure if they didnt cheat on me

as apparently the lies i find out are directly connected to cheating, WHat means the facts i didnt find out about my previous relationships/dates could have been cheats as well.

Also why do people have to tell you all the romantic stuff, plan smth u wanted to do for long time, excite you with that

and than leave and do exactly what you ve planend with someone else?

And that keep on happening with every man i date. It starts, its all beautifull then BAM !

Here we go again

same thing

same stuff

same man


Friday, January 13, 2006

Avoid those who makes you cry

Every day of our life we grow, We take peoples minds and feelings, we put them inside of us, we keep them there, and they start working like a chemical they influence on us, on our life, on our reactions, they change the way we think we breath, we walk, we talk. And every step we take on that long mysterious road is changing us, changing the future , the present. What we allow people to take out of us or put into us whether lets us grow, or kills... Kills all that we where born with. And its hard to figure out who kills your inside and the actual you ads we are blinded by images created in our heads, we don't see the real thing, we see what we want to see, we see what we create, what we like, what we are comfortable with. And then we wonder why life changes, why we are feeling different, why all world spined around and is starting to crash. Because the person pushed and damaged starts to slowly die. Slowly becomes just a living creature that goes darker and darker, till there is nothing to see inside anymore, and then there is no point to live anymore. If there was a way to be with that exact person who makes you shine, who makes you smile, who your life is changing to your dream with , and never disappear that would be the perfect world. then people would live longer, would be stronger, happier and more loving.

I noticed a lot of people stay with someone who completely brings them down, who makes them feel sad, who makes them cry, and they just stick to them

And its all the fault of that "Image" , The Image they created which associates with those few happy moments which most probably where just an accident, Or Not real, And we keep them in our memories, and we keep on rewinding back and forth on them. And it makes a delusion of happiness that never existed. That could have sparkled a few times but never was real, never lasted, and never made us live.

Avoid those who make u miserable, those who make you cry for no reason all the time, avoid those who you know inside with your instincts are not right, as while you are killing yourself inside of your heart and brain, there is someone waiting for you, and it might be not too late to grow yourself back.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Relationships as a temporary thing

As i realised a lot of people start of their relationships because they are lonely, or just because, just for the sake of it. They spend all the time together, They say the love each other, they have romantic loving sex, but most of them know that it wont last, as one person has his plans for future. In which the other person is not included. He (she) doesn't see the other person in them. I thought it works differently, I thought once u find someone your dreams change a little, you add another person into them, you want all you wanted before but together, you want all the future dreams to be there with her. But that doesn't usually happen.

Person starts being with that someone but dreams are still the same. They r still lonely or with someone else, and she is not in there. And once its clear and once u hear that or understand that the wish for doing it and being with that someone slowly fade. It fades into casual, friendship, with no future, because whats the point? whats the point of wasting your time, your feelings , your thoughts on someone who does not sees what you see?

I know sometimes it changes. But don't u feel it, don't u feel from the first moment if its right? By putting all the feelings aside and just listening to your heart. And if it isn't then u loose yourself, as every guy or girl u have any kind of feelings to stays there , and takes a part of you away. Its like a bright red heart, which you keep on sharing with different people, and after they are gone they keep a little piece of it, or a big pice4 of it, which you can never get back. And why waste your heart on people who do not want to share theirs, or who are not thinking of the situation as a serious thing, who already have in mind what they want and they don't seem to change it? Who from the beginning are ready to give you up for thei4r dream instead of sharing the dream?

100 Questions an 100 Answers

FUCK! Just checked how old i am

***You Are 31 Years Old***


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.


What Age Do You Act?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz




Thursday, December 15, 2005

Killing ma game

Figured out after reading my Aquarius horoscope...

Yes i do idealise people and they are not what i think they are... So then why bother trying to make it happen when the other person doesn't bring any afford in?

Killing ma game



Tgggggggg

Tggggggg

(those where gun shots ) :)

lol




Thursday, December 15, 2005

AQUARIUS

Because of your fondness for new ideas, you enjoy studying science, technology and other subjects that enable people to control the world in some way.

When you are with a group of friends, you think about the group as a whole rather than just about yourself. This can cause problems for you if your needs conflict with the needs of the rest of the group. You will stand up for anyone who is not being treated fairly.

You are usually very fair and your sense of justice is strong. You have no special awe of authority figures; in fact, you ignore the traditional notion that anyone in authority should be respected. These people must prove their worth as far as you're concerned.

This aspect indicates that you tend to be a romantic and that you prefer to deal with lovely fantasies rather than with the real truth. Partly this is because you idealize others, and when they turn out to be less than you had imagined, you are disappointed. On the one hand, you may feel that you have little right to ask for anything, that you are not worthy of love. Because you won't stand up for your rights, you are likely to attract persons who are not very good for you.

On the other hand, you may seek out someone who is even worse off, so that you can take care of him or her. Helping someone in a worse situation makes you feel better about yourself by contrast, and it also uses the more positive side of this aspect, which wants to love generously and unselfishly.

Execution

Few hours ago they executed a serial killer

I so strongly disagree with that decision. No matter what the person did, no one is this world has a right to take someones life away. And if they do They r considered killers, what makes our government one of those.


So what they proved with this move is that they are exactly like that killer.

Would love to know your thoughts on that


Tuesday, December 13, 2005

The dreams in which im dying are the best i've ever had

I found myself realising that i do not accept people. i do not understand them. i feel like an animal from a different planet... where there is no out side. where people interact with their feelings, energy, thoughts. Where nothing matters what matters in this world. Where people don't fight to have a good reputation or being famous. they do what they where born to do. What they really want to do...

That world exists for me. where till now i live by myself, and no one ever entered it for real. Probably no one ever will.
If there was a way for me to express it i wouldn't think for a second but then.. would anyone understand it? would anyone even look at it?

People are so deeply covered with their shells that they created by surroundings that they don't see the true themselves anymore...

I guess the most real person is the new born one. Or the one disconnected from the world. Yes we do need experiences, interactions but we loos ourselves in that. And sometimes it gets lost sooo far that its nearly impossible to find again...

Why cant we develop inside of us and our brain and mind power on the full?

Its the most beautiful thing in the world. Nothing can ever compare to it....


Friday, December 09, 2005

LA - City of devils

I keep on living and hoping that all will change



That life will become what i want it to be and it keeps on bouncing back and ruining it all. Why does it have to be so hard?

All i want is not that much. But its still seems impossible to find.

Is there that person out there who is gonna make my life move? Who is going to take my life worth leaving? And wont disappear after a while?

No that doesn't exist

Unfortunately as i experienced we have to live for ourselves and never trust anyone on a full power

As much as u like sm1 u never know what they have for you around the corner, u never know whats in their mind, what r their real thoughts

And then u keep on questioning our self, Why? Why did it happen to be the way it is? And i can never answer it



When something seems already so perfect and so true the big shock comes on the way and ruins it all

And it happens again and again and again

and never ends

It goes in circles

in rotations

What is out there that stops it from happening?

U say I'm only young? Maybe I'm not . Maybe i really lived enough to understand that this doesn't really happen with the one u want

That at some point it ends ?

Maybe its a matter of finding the rite person

Or maybe its the matter of yourself?

There are so many thing underneath the reality thinking that control us and we don't even see it..

And i always try to stop them but they never do

The screw all over

Or maybe they make it better, They bring the challenge.

But do we really need it?

My hope is dying

and its dying really quick, that i an hardly remember what it was. I want it back But it doesn't come back.

And the "city of angels" Is a city of devils for real

Scariest place in the all world. Yes it will get your career going

But will u ever find the second part of u here? Even if u will or already did it will dissolve

The city will eat it out and destroy it.

It makes people So insecure, confused and lost that they don't know themselves anymore


Monday, December 05, 2005